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I read something last night that spoke loudly, in megaphone fashion, to the center of my scared, unsure soul. For all of you waiting on an adoption, for a foster care placement, direction for your future, that house to sell, a new one to buy, a job opportunity, a major life change, a move, a chance, a wife, a husband, or for God to give you the faith to take that next step, maybe these words will bring comfort to you as well.
There's a place between here and there. A piece of ground in the middle of take-off and landing. A section of the unknown within beginning and ending. You probably find yourself there from time to time. It's the land known as Inbetween.
Inbetween is one of the most rugged places in life. You aren't fully here, and you aren't fully there. Your emotions and hopes are strewn across an endless list of possibilities. Door knobs of wood, brass, and silver line the path, but which will open? In the land of Inbetween, the paths are lined with sealed envelopes and foggy dreams. Excitement runs forward and fears hold back. And if you stay long enough, you feel the tremors of your soul.
The land of Inbetween is downright scary. It's a place of blind trust. It's where the pedals of faith meet the narrow road of fortitude and where movement is demanded though there's no place to go. The worst part of this land isn't the uncertainty or frustration that accompany it - it's that God likes it when you're there.
While He's no sadist, God loves the land of Inbetween. He loves what it does to us. He loves the humility and dependence it creates in our hearts, so He creates innumerable forks in life's road that swerve us into the land of Inbetween. The unknowns of job, marriage, children, and home are the signs of this uncertain land. At times, people are thrust into Inbetween by mishaps, accidents, sudden deaths, and even unexpected fortune. Some people visit so many times they begin to wonder if it's life. And they aren't far off.
So what will hold you steady when you walk through the terrain of Inbetween? A recognition that Inbetween is God's design. In one miraculous moment, the Creator of the universe placed you in the greatest Inbetween of all time - the place between the earthly creation and eternity. Life's smaller lunges forward and backward are merely postcard reminders that there's something greater than this place we're visiting.
If you're in your own land of Inbetween, remember that God was the original designer of this journey. You can get mad, scream, and even pout if you want. But it doesn't change the fact that you're merely passing through. Everything else is Inbetween. (from Deeper Walk, a Relevant Devotional Series)
Can I be honest and say, "I'm kind of weary of our life always being so crazy?" It seems like the last six years or so our lives have been in a constant state of Inbetween. Foster care training, fostering, adoption, new jobs, a move to a foreign country, houses selling, buying new homes...I'm weary. Yet here we are facing another move, different jobs, finding a place to live, and dealing with a pile of other unknowns. I'm asking God today to give me a vision of heaven as we sit in this hard place of Inbetween once again. May this uncertainty, this feeling of "not quite home or settled" turn my heart towards heaven and help me to see that this world is only the connecting flight, never the destination. In that way the land of Inbetween, those often-times frustrating days of waiting, are an extension of God's kindness and grace towards us. Small, zoomed-in pictures of our story that remind us of the bigger picture we will see once the camera zooms out and eternity is revealed. Perhaps each trip to the land of Inbetween is a sweet gift, a heavenly reminder. Without them, maybe my eyes would not remember to look up and my heart would forget to hurt for heaven. May I learn to be more comfortable with the friction of living in one place while my heart longs for another. Isn't that what faith is all about? Waiting with anticipation for God to do something marvelous and for His Kingdom to come?