Friday, May 12, 2006
I Cried All the Way Home
May May, go away, come again some other day.
I've often thought it would take super human strength to watch so many precious people come into our lives...and then walk out of it.
Who can do this?
These wonderfully brilliant people walk in, plop themselves down on the sofa of my soul...where we've shared some of the most magnificent conversations, ideas, thoughts, gut-wrenching laughter...then they get up...we have a BBQ...and they are gone.
Will Tuesdays ever be the same?
I said good-bye to my sweet girls over BBQ today. On the way there, I reminded my boys to give our girls lots and lots of love and hugs, because it would be a long time until we got to see them again.
Anson began to cry.
I joined him.
I want you girls to know (along with D.O. and "Att" Graham...) you have touched our lives. You've touched our children's lives. I realized today, that none of them even remember life with out you in it! You have played large roles in their little worlds. The highlight of their week is the night when you all come over. "Are we there yet" has never made it into their vocabulary...but..."Is it Tuesday yet" sure has.
We will miss you. All of you.
I'll miss Lauren's smell and your hand motions while you talk.
I'll miss D.O.'s pessimism and servant heart. I'll miss how much you help my sweet husband.
I'll miss Matt's whackiness and creativity. I've never met someone more creative. Never. Use your powers for good, Matt...always for good. Words and ideas don't make things happen. People do. I believe you are destined to be one of those people.
I'll miss laughing at Claire. You're so funny. We all know it. But, you're beautiful too. One day you're going to see what we see. You won't believe what we all see when we see you!
I'll miss Jessica. The whole world should stop and take notes when you talk. You amaze me. You've made us laugh. You've made us cry. I've never seen someone so strong and yet equally humble. You make us proud.
I'll miss my Brook-e. Oh Brooke! I've learned so much from you. Thank you for being honest with me and letting me learn. Your honest introspection has saved our family from many, many mistakes. I am forever indebted. I will miss you terribly. Terribly.
You've all made me cry today...that cry that causes a headache. On the way home I thought..."Hmmm...this pain...this deep sadness I feel right now is probably why it would be a lot easier to just let these wonderful people float by instead of inviting them to sit a spell on my sofa." Love hurts. Knowing others can be painful.
However, I would not trade this headache for anything. I've loved loving you. I've loved learning from you. I've loved seeing you love the Lord. If I could make enough sweet tea to make you stay...I'd start making it right now and never stop.
I will miss looking up on that stage and my breath being taken away. For a moment, I can't sing. I can only look at each of you...Matt being brilliant, Brooke being Brooke, Jessica and D.O. standing with my husband worshipping the Lord with everything...it makes me cry...every single time. The same awe-inspiring God that made you, makes me stand in awe as I watch your giftedness displayed in all His glory. I have never been more proud of a group of people. I've never been more blessed than when I see you blessing the Lord.
When Aaron got home, we stood in the kitchen, holding each other...crying.
We've been reminded today how very human we are.
We love you.
They should make some sort of medicine for May.